Rage + Healing + 6000 Degrees and Humidity
The moment I stopped waiting for gentle advice to save me and decided to fight for my life instead.
I was melting.
Physically, emotionally, spiritually — melting into a pile of “I can’t live like this another day.”
It was summer in the tropics, and I was living in a crumbling house with no space to move, no money to escape, and no ounce of peace. The walls were literally falling down. The heat pressed into every corner of our lives like a punishment. My kids and I were on top of each other, sweaty and exhausted, day after day, with nothing to do and nowhere to go.
And I was so angry.
Not the “ugh, I’m annoyed” kind of anger.
The scorching, righteous, gut-splitting kind of anger.
I wasn’t just angry at my situation. I was furious that I had followed every safe, approved, good-girl path and ended up here — broken, stuck, and vanishing inside my own life. I had tried. I had been patient. I had taken the tiny steps, whispered the affirmations, journaled the polite prompts.
And I was still drowning.
So I reached out for support.
I asked for help.
And what I got was... gentle.
Soft suggestions.
“Be kind to yourself.”
“Maybe just try one little shift.”
“Progress isn’t linear.”
I wanted to scream.
Because here’s what no one tells you:
Sometimes softness feels like suffocation.
Sometimes you’re not fragile — you’re on fire.
And you don’t need a hand to hold.
You need a sword.
That was the moment.
The moment I stopped waiting to be rescued.
The moment I realized the only person who could save me… was me.
I needed to go big.
Not in some flashy, hustle-culture way. But in the way of commitment.
I needed to live and breathe healing.
To burn away everything that wasn’t mine.
To rebuild from bone.
💬 A gentle note from someone who’s been there:
It is 100% okay if you’re not in warrior mode yet.
If what you want right now is softness, support, and someone to save you — that’s not weakness. That’s the Spark Embers phase. And it’s sacred. Go as small and slow as you need. Stay as long as you need. There is no magic button to push or timeline to follow.
You won’t need to ask if you’re in the warrior phase when you get there.
You’ll know.
It hits like truth in your bones.
If You’re Here…
You might be feeling that rage too.
That white-hot fury that you’re still stuck, still small, still being told to wait your turn.
You’re not broken for feeling that way.
You’re awakening.
Welcome to the Spark Warrior phase.
What Helped Me Shift into Warrior Mode
I didn’t find a perfect system. I didn’t discover a secret 3-step formula. What I found was that I had to move. Breathe. Act. Experiment. Claim power with every small choice, every boundary, every spark of truth I let myself believe again.
That’s why I created this:
⚔️ The Spark Warrior Kit — a free, no-fluff resource for women who are DONE waiting. This kit is for the ones who know it’s time. It won’t coddle you. But it will walk beside you while you rise.
